I’m often disappointed by other people. Even now, when I thought I was over that. I’m still surprised by how much pretense some people have, and how often they lie. To themselves, and to everyone else around them. Pretending to be something that they aren’t.
Living your life honestly. Without any make-believe. That kind of upfrontery is hard to find.
In fact, outside of my core group of friends and family, it seems almost nonexistent.
I know that I give other people too much power. And I know that I need to stop being so trusting. But it’s hard to give up a life-long habit. I’ve tried, really hard, to stop being so gullible. To resume old relationships in a way that’s a little wiser, a little smarter. To enter into new relationships with a wary chip on my shoulder. Knowing that I should know better. But people will wear you down.
I’m looking for a procedure. Like a chemical peel. Stripping down to what matters. I just want to peel back that first layer of skin. Get to what’s underneath for once.
But lately, what worries me is the number of people in my life who have gotten under my skin.
Can I have them surgically removed?
Is there a process, like a chemical peel, that will take away unsightly friends and burn off ugly old lovers?
A procedure that eliminates all of the old scars left behind by failed relationships?
Removes the fine lines left from friends that I no longer speak with?
The basic cell structure. Naked. Stripped. Without pretense. Without defense.
Does it exist? And how much does it cost?
Living your life honestly. Without any make-believe. That kind of upfrontery is hard to find.
In fact, outside of my core group of friends and family, it seems almost nonexistent.
I know that I give other people too much power. And I know that I need to stop being so trusting. But it’s hard to give up a life-long habit. I’ve tried, really hard, to stop being so gullible. To resume old relationships in a way that’s a little wiser, a little smarter. To enter into new relationships with a wary chip on my shoulder. Knowing that I should know better. But people will wear you down.
I’m looking for a procedure. Like a chemical peel. Stripping down to what matters. I just want to peel back that first layer of skin. Get to what’s underneath for once.
But lately, what worries me is the number of people in my life who have gotten under my skin.
Can I have them surgically removed?
Is there a process, like a chemical peel, that will take away unsightly friends and burn off ugly old lovers?
A procedure that eliminates all of the old scars left behind by failed relationships?
Removes the fine lines left from friends that I no longer speak with?
The basic cell structure. Naked. Stripped. Without pretense. Without defense.
Does it exist? And how much does it cost?
