Tuesday, December 22, 2009

the Christmas letter

Dear friends and family,

Well another year has passed and I have so, so much to tell you about what’s going on in my life now. I know, I know, another Christmas letter. But I figured, with holiday form letters filling up my mailbox daily, why not add mine to the mix?

So let’s recap:

No. I am “still” not married. And I have to say, questions about “when” and “why” just get better and better every time every time I hear them. I can’t think of anything more personal that all of you cheerful well-wishers might ask me, unless it’s a blow-by-blow of my last physical. “No, the stirrups don’t bother me at all. But his hands are always so cold!”

And no, before you ask, I am not currently in a relationship. I went through a very painful, protracted break-up this year that seemed to go on for months and at this point, there is some possibility that I am just dropping out of the dating game. Forever.

Getting ready to mark my five-year anniversary for being self employed in spring, I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your support. The 2pm Monday afternoon phone calls where you always manage to ask (in hushed tones), “Did I wake you?” exemplify your ongoing commitment to and understanding of my work ethic and it is so, so appreciated.

As for my health and well-being, well, I feel every year of my age this month. And while “the big one” is still about 10 months out, my helpful friends have already started referring to me as being 40. As in “Did you ever think it would be this way when we reached our 40s?” Thanks. That’s really, really helpful and I appreciate the shove into middle age.

It wouldn’t be a Christmas letter without writing about what I resolve to do in 2010 and what my Big Plans are for the New Year. It’s been a crazy year and in case you haven’t been reading, I still don’t seem to know where I am going, what I am doing or who I might be doing it with. Mostly, I just try to reflect the principles of Taoism and let myself go with the flow to find my happiness. Because any planning that I do always seems to end up misfiring, backfiring or otherwise just not working out.

And after everything, I still believe in Christmas.

Best Wishes in the Holiday Season. I hope wherever you are, you are safe, healthy, happy and loved.